Someone to talk to

[silvertabby]

Hi. Do you ever feel like talking to someone, someone who's not in it all, so they don't have an opinion already? I'd be ready to talk. About anything, actually. I just feel so...alone. So if anyone feels the same...I know I'm pathetyc, but i don't care, really.

[EloquentPhoenix]

You're not pathetic. We all feel alone sometimes and I definitely agree about talking to someone without an opinion already. That helps a lot. What do you want to talk about?

[mmadlyinlove]

If you feel lonely (which happens to us all so don't feel bad), then you can talk to me. I always tell everyone that they can talk to me, especially other ff writers. You can send me an IM or e-mail at [e-mail] if you like, or on this ADMM website. I'm always online. Hahaha. So we can talk anytime you feel like, or not, if I'm not someone you want to talk to. Hahaha. Don't feel bad if you don't cuz it happens frequently. Hahaha. ~mmadlyinlove~

[silvertabby]

thanks. Well...It used to be wonderfull. We were 4 bfs, happy, together, having lothes of fun and not caring what the others think about us. Me, my boyfriend, my bf and her boyfriend...But then my bf told her mum she and D made out at my party. And she yelled at the poor girl for an hour, telling her she's to young...and that she's suposed to punch him in the nose if he tries to tuch her again. Next morning I whent to school to find my bf with her nose burried in a book and looking as if all her ships sunk, and D trying to catch her eye, with no success. She said nothing for almost 2 hours, then she exploded, telling me everything. Things were made no better, by this idiot that was at my party and started blabing to everyone, so people were all talking about us. 'Is it true M made out whit T? Is it true J made out with D?' not whispers, more like yells, so the Geography teacher was in the classroom when I yelled' It is none of your business who I make out with!' Great, isn't it? But I was afected the least. D came to talk to me asked me about J...then J asked me about D, and said she hoped he'll fall for someone else, and not have his heart broaken allong with her. Than D told me he'll never love someone else than J. SOOO sad. But now how can we go on being friends, J's mother doesn't let her even be friends with boys, 'old hag', as D put it. We were so bloody happy, and now I feel alone and L, school's bitch, makes fun of me, so does A, a suposed to be friend. SHIT!!!

[EloquentPhoenix]

Oh dear. I'm mortified for you because I hate people talking about me. But I do promise that it will get a little better. Don't worry about your Geography teacher, he's probably already forgotten. And by next week you'll be old news and everyone will be talking about someone else or some other gossip. I know it's still shit but at least that makes it easier once the spotlight is off you all. As for A, your supposed friend, he/she isn't worth the time of day and just forget him/her. Why have enemies when you can have friends like that, eh? And as for your bestfriend and D, well, I don't know what to suggest. Just be there for her to be supportive and hope things work out with her mum and her boyfriend. There's nothing else you can do for her. Just try to get along and see how things turn out. Not great I know but I don't know what else to suggest. Apart from ranting about it, because that always makes me feel better. What does your boyfriend think about it all?

[silvertabby]

Thanks for your advise, it made me feel a little beter. Anyway, today was a beter day. My boyfriend doesn't care about the gossip, he's atention is focused on being happy because he's with me. He makes me feel a bit beter. We went on a little trip with our teacher, and it was realy fun, well except for being laughed at by A and called retarded(the nerv of him!) and having my glasses poaked in my eye by Helen The Blundering Idiot, who was trying to ruin my hair cut. We had fun, apparently J took my advise and started taking her mother less seriously, so she was beaming and recounting a dream to D, who was rolling on the floor laughing. T and I had a great time as well... But Gosh I HATE A! He's the kind of guy that knows women clothes brands, cosmetics...and so on. Actually, he sells Avon products. God! Usually I get along well with boys, better than girls, because they're more understanding, think of something else than lipstic and are less hipocrit. Well, A is quite the oposite. He's sooo gay, and he doesn't even accept it. He allways makes fun of me and my friends, but especially me. We were bfs in second grade and now he tells everyone what silly things I did then, or didn't do. Like Wodo, I most certenly did not do that, ever. Oh, and I have to stay with Lora, the school's bitch, who makes fun of everyone, and made a few teachers cry. Lovely!

[EloquentPhoenix]

I'm glad things were a little better. Keep your head up and concentrate on your boyfriend and your friend being happier too.

[mmadlyinlove]

Yeah and as for the whole L thing, the Bi-otch, or whoever it was that was mocking you, and this SUPPOSED friend, A, (appropriate letter), the next time they mock you, tell 'em to stick it where the sun don't shine.. Well that wasn't my EXACT thought.... it was more like screw em up the rear and to the left, but hey, you don't have to say that. Hahaha. I spent years on people like that, but still don't worry about it. K?

~mmadlyinlove~

[admmityourlove]

Well, I have something to say. One of family's longest time friends has been diagnosed with incurable stomach cancer and she only has a few months left. We just found out tonight. I talked to my mom on the phone and she could barely get the words out. I am so indescribably sad right now. Christine was such a good person and a loving mother and wife to her family...and she doesn't deserve to have her life end like this with her two kids still school aged. Her daughter is going to graduate from high school this year, but by then Christine might not be there anymore. I came on this board to read fluff and try to distract myself, but its just not working. If anyone else here is preparing for grief, or is in the process of grieving, then please post. I feel so alone right now...

[mmadcrazyfan]

oh, dear admmityourlove, im so very sorry!
my thoughts and prayers are with you
your friend may pull through and beat the odds, you never ever know

when i was little, i was in disney world. i turned a corner and found my grandmother, my hero and my bestfrind, on the sidewalk after having a stroke
everyone expected her to die there
she didnt
she beat the odds and lived for two more years
your friend may do the very very same, never ever fear. for right now, enjoy the time you spend with you friend and try not to let the future scare you, becuase when you think about it, the future doesn;t exist. and it never will.

i hope that helps in the slightest bit. if all else fails, eat chocolate and watch fluff until your teeth fall out.

love,
mmadcrazyfan

[EloquentPhoenix]

Oh, darling, I'm so sorry. I know this is useless, but I'm very bad at this and I'm just so sorry for her, her family and you all.

[silvertabby]

me to. I know how it is. My grandfather died of cancer earlyer this year. I think she might still have chances, though. Who knows.

[mmadlyinlove]

I would love to help, but I have not known a personal loss, even though I'm 20. I wish I could say something to help you out. ~mmadlyinlove~

[KristaMarie]

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry. I've been down this road, and it's not easy. Try to think positive-- things have a way of working out when we need them to. I'll send up some extra prayers for you and for her as well!

[silvertabby]

Something to say, again. Things aren't going all that right... My dad's in hospital, and mum...well, she's aboard with her antient lover...great isn't it? So I'm living alone, most of the day I'm at my grandma's, who's trying to turn me into a crazed up workahoolic. My life's like shit! My best friend yelled at me because I don't know how to play voleyball, I don't know what's gotten into her. And my grandfather's having yelling fits, directed at...gues who? Me again. Gosh is anyone in my family in their right minds?! And my teacher asked me to write a page boute something that made me crie. I wrote dumbledore's death, and she started laughing at my composition

[EloquentPhoenix]

*Sends hugs* As for your teacher, that was really unprofessional and she's really out of order. I'd be amazed if you kept your cool, or didjn't get upset because I couldn't have.

I hope your Dad is better soon, and I'm sure things will settle down with your grandparents and friend, they could have just been having a bad day too. I hope you feel better soon.

As for my life? I hate stress.

[silvertabby]

I'm going nuts. I am afraid to go to school. They all hate me appart for 2 odd best friends. Why? Because I don't try to copy someone and I wish to be myself. This isn't fear! I didn't work at all and I woak up the best in school? Shis is a nightmear with no end... I really hate my life. ...sorry I think I just had to say it

[mmadforever]

im not great with giving advice but here is goes... life can suck, a lot! i know because im just like you, everything in my life is just neggative. i only have a few friends and some of them are big mouths so i cant talk to them, instead i decided to keep a journal about my life. i get all my anger out and i do have one friend to talk to if times get rough. also i get depresses if i read the journal so after i write down about my day and stuff i never read what i wrote. i think you could do the same thing (keep a journal)

hope i can help!

[Blue]

Being bullied and hated for who you are is always tough. When I was younger I used to get bullied for no other reason than I was younger than the rest of my class because I'd been moved up a year. I had no one other than another girl who was being bullied as well. I know it can be very hard and very tempting, but don't change who you are for anybody other than yourself, because I'm sure you'll find some friends soon who appreciate you for who you are.

I'm not so great at the advise, sorry :S I always tend to fall back on SAY NO TO DRUGS. because that's good advice too.
if anyone wants to talk to me (dunno why you would I'm a NUTTER ) send me a pm and I'll send you my msn.


try to be happy!!! blue xxx

[MinervaMcGonagall]

I'm sorry about everything that happens. PM or IM me if you need to talk.