Post by Herzele on Jun 30, 2005 6:14:47 GMT -5
A/N : This is my first fic. I don't think it's very good, but Cammie and Ang told me I should post it, and so I will post it ... Cammie even threatened to post it herself, if I wouldn't ... ;D I hope you like it ...
Summary : What happens after that Stunner Attack ?
Title : Change of mind
Rating : 13+
Change of mind
Minerva McGonagall lay injured in St. Mungo’s – still recovering from those four Stunners Dolores Umbridge and her helpers had sent at her instead of Hagrid.
That had been three days ago and Minerva hadn’t been awake once since then. But now, during her third night at St. Mungo’s, she finally seemed to feel better. Albus Dumbledore, who sat on a chair next to her bed and gently held one of her hands in his – exactly like he had done the previous nights when he was sure nobody could see him – while lightly stroking it with his thumb, noticed she didn’t seem to be in such pain anymore. Her face and her body seemed calmer and more relaxed than they had during his last visits and he certainly hoped that she was going to wake up soon.
He needed her – desperately. He absolutely relied on her. In everything. Whenever he needed someone to talk to he always turned to her. She was always there for him. And during the last days, since he had gotten word that she had been hit right in the chest by four Stunners at the same time, he had come to realize that she meant much more to him than he ever wanted to admit – even to himself.
He had, of course, been aware of the fact that they shared something very special. They had always shared a very strong and deep friendship – and maybe even a little bit more than that.
But it had only been the last few days that had made him realize how much he really loved her.
Albus now knew for sure that he couldn’t go on without Minerva by his side. And he had promised himself he would do something about that. As soon as she would wake up, he would tell her how he felt about her. But as soon as had he made up his mind about it, he started to become nervous. How would she react? He didn’t know if Minerva returned these feelings. But he realized that he would never know, if he didn’t do anything about it at all.
He would just tell her and wait how she would react. And he would just hope she wouldn’t be disgusted and never speak to him again. At least she didn’t have the chance to run away here. She would have to listen to him and what he had to tell her. That thought was surprisingly comforting to him. He didn’t know why that was the case – it just was …
He continued to hold her hand and brought it up to his lips to kiss it. He gently let their locked hands fall back onto the bed and brought one of his hands to her cheek to caress it, while the other still held hers. “Wake up soon, Minerva.” he whispered to her. “I need you!”
Some minutes later, still caressing her cheek and holding her hand, he saw her eyelids begin to flutter and, finally, she opened her beautiful green eyes. “Albus?” she asked, before she focussed her gaze on him, her voice hoarse. It had to be him – it simply had to …
He gave her hand a little squeeze and continued to caress her cheek. ”I’m here, my dear.” He felt so happy and relieved that she was awake again and he just had to take her into his arms and hold her. And without even pausing to think about it he did just that.
Minerva was surprised but she quickly recovered from the surprise and gladly hugged him back. Sure, they had shared hugs before, occasionally, but this time it felt completely different. “Albus are you okay?” she asked a tad worried. She could clearly hear his smile as he answered, ”I am now, my dear. But I was so scared I was going to lose you…” he added.
Now Minerva was even more puzzled. What had brought about this sudden change in his behaviour? Not that she was complaining, but she didn’t really understand it. Thoughts kept running through her head. ‘Why this sudden display of affection? Why is he acting like this? Yes, of course, we are best friends, but still … I never would have expected anything like this! What is the meaning of all this?’ She couldn’t really find an answer to her questions. ‘Unless he …’ But here, she interrupted her own train of thoughts. ’No, that can’t be. He doesn’t love me!’
She had convinced herself that he could never return her love for him a long time ago. She was just a simple witch, who by the way, she thought a little bitterly, was very old now, and he was the greatest wizard of their time. Surely he would never fall in love with her.
But he once again managed to surprise her like he had done so often during the long years of their friendship, when he pulled back a little and started to caress her cheek again – with more tenderness than he ever had before. She blinked and looked at him surprised and a little bit unsure about what would happen. He smiled at her and slowly brought his head closer to hers.
Finally, his lips touched hers. At the beginning he was just brushing them over hers, but when she responded and brought her hands up to his neck to hold him closer, he deepened the kiss and slowly let his tongue explore her mouth.
After some time they had to pull apart to breathe. But his eyes never left hers and his hand was still caressing her now flushed cheek. When she finally was able to break their eye contact, Minerva shyly looked down at the bed. But Albus forced her to look at him again by gently raising her face with one of his fingers under her chin. “Minerva, please look at me.”
She did as he had asked and was surprised to notice nervousness and uncertainty in his eyes. After what seemed like an eternity to her, Albus finally spoke again. ”My dear, there’s something I have to tell you – I simply have to or it’ll drive me insane …” Here he paused. Minerva looked at him questioningly and when he didn’t continue she carefully asked, ”Yes ?”
Albus took both of her hands in his and, after taking a deep breath, continued with a slightly shaking voice, ”Minerva, I love you.” After he had confessed his love, he closed his eyes and thought, ’My god, what have I done ? I just ruined our friendship. Now she’s going to tell me she doesn’t love me and will never be able to love me because I’m much too old for her …’ He opened his mouth to say something, but to his surprise Minerva stopped him by putting her finger over his lips.
When Albus had closed his mouth, she leaned into him and pressed her lips against his again. At first, Albus was too shocked and surprised to react, but when he regained his senses he deepened the kiss and she gladly accepted it. When the kiss ended, he opened his eyes again and looked at her, still dazed, ”What…?”
Minerva broadly smiled at him. ”I love you, too, you fool …” And even if she still was in pain from those Stunners, the smile and the sparkle that lit up his face and eyes at that moment definitely were worth going through all of this. And before she could even think of what to do next, she was in his arms again and his lips were on hers again. When they pulled apart, both were smiling.
Albus moved, so that Minerva could rest her head on his chest. After they had talked for a while, her head began to sink and sink until it landed in his lap. When she had made herself comfortable, he stroked her hair. ”You should go back to sleep, darling…” ‘Strange, how easy it is to call her that. I thought I would have more problems with it…’ he thought, smiling to himself.
Minerva opened her mouth to say something, but he silenced her by putting his finger over her mouth. “Don’t start arguing … I can see that you’re still weak and in pain and you need all the rest you can possibly get to get well.” She closed her mouth and her eyes as well and nodded. “You’re right.”
She then opened her eyes again to look at him. “What about you ?” Albus smiled a little, having noticed her silent plea right away. He promised her, ”I’ll stay till you fall asleep and then I will leave and hide again. But I’ll be back again tomorrow!”
Minerva smiled at him. ”Just promise me you’ll really leave once I’m asleep. You shouldn’t have come here to see me in the first place. It’s very risky … What if Fudge decides to turn up here and finds you?” she scolded him gently, although she was very glad he had come to see her. And she was even happier about the change in their relationship.
Albus smiled at her tenderly. ”Yes, I know. But I just had to see for myself that you were going to be okay… I was so afraid I would lose you!” She reached up to stroke his cheek. ”Shhh… You won’t!” she told him firmly. And with a small smile she added, ”At least not yet, anyway. And most certainly not if I can help it! I love you!” His smile broadened once again as he told her, ”And I love you! But now go to sleep…”
She made herself comfortable again, closed her eyes and fell asleep within minutes. After she had fallen asleep he stayed for another fifteen minutes and watched her while holding her hand. But then he decided that – even if he wanted to stay in this position with her forever – it would be much safer for him to leave.
Reluctantly he got up, placed her head back on the pillow carefully and tucked her properly in. She snuggled deeper into the covers and gave a little content noise that, had she been in her cat form at that time, would have been a purr for sure, Albus thought with a chuckle. He stood there for another five minutes watching her before he was able to tear his eyes away from her and leave. But not without pressing a kiss to her forehead, ”I love you so much, Minerva …”
And, as if she had heard those reassuring words even in her sleep, a happy smile spread across her face. After Albus had noticed this, he smiled to himself and left.
Summary : What happens after that Stunner Attack ?
Title : Change of mind
Rating : 13+
Change of mind
Minerva McGonagall lay injured in St. Mungo’s – still recovering from those four Stunners Dolores Umbridge and her helpers had sent at her instead of Hagrid.
That had been three days ago and Minerva hadn’t been awake once since then. But now, during her third night at St. Mungo’s, she finally seemed to feel better. Albus Dumbledore, who sat on a chair next to her bed and gently held one of her hands in his – exactly like he had done the previous nights when he was sure nobody could see him – while lightly stroking it with his thumb, noticed she didn’t seem to be in such pain anymore. Her face and her body seemed calmer and more relaxed than they had during his last visits and he certainly hoped that she was going to wake up soon.
He needed her – desperately. He absolutely relied on her. In everything. Whenever he needed someone to talk to he always turned to her. She was always there for him. And during the last days, since he had gotten word that she had been hit right in the chest by four Stunners at the same time, he had come to realize that she meant much more to him than he ever wanted to admit – even to himself.
He had, of course, been aware of the fact that they shared something very special. They had always shared a very strong and deep friendship – and maybe even a little bit more than that.
But it had only been the last few days that had made him realize how much he really loved her.
Albus now knew for sure that he couldn’t go on without Minerva by his side. And he had promised himself he would do something about that. As soon as she would wake up, he would tell her how he felt about her. But as soon as had he made up his mind about it, he started to become nervous. How would she react? He didn’t know if Minerva returned these feelings. But he realized that he would never know, if he didn’t do anything about it at all.
He would just tell her and wait how she would react. And he would just hope she wouldn’t be disgusted and never speak to him again. At least she didn’t have the chance to run away here. She would have to listen to him and what he had to tell her. That thought was surprisingly comforting to him. He didn’t know why that was the case – it just was …
He continued to hold her hand and brought it up to his lips to kiss it. He gently let their locked hands fall back onto the bed and brought one of his hands to her cheek to caress it, while the other still held hers. “Wake up soon, Minerva.” he whispered to her. “I need you!”
Some minutes later, still caressing her cheek and holding her hand, he saw her eyelids begin to flutter and, finally, she opened her beautiful green eyes. “Albus?” she asked, before she focussed her gaze on him, her voice hoarse. It had to be him – it simply had to …
He gave her hand a little squeeze and continued to caress her cheek. ”I’m here, my dear.” He felt so happy and relieved that she was awake again and he just had to take her into his arms and hold her. And without even pausing to think about it he did just that.
Minerva was surprised but she quickly recovered from the surprise and gladly hugged him back. Sure, they had shared hugs before, occasionally, but this time it felt completely different. “Albus are you okay?” she asked a tad worried. She could clearly hear his smile as he answered, ”I am now, my dear. But I was so scared I was going to lose you…” he added.
Now Minerva was even more puzzled. What had brought about this sudden change in his behaviour? Not that she was complaining, but she didn’t really understand it. Thoughts kept running through her head. ‘Why this sudden display of affection? Why is he acting like this? Yes, of course, we are best friends, but still … I never would have expected anything like this! What is the meaning of all this?’ She couldn’t really find an answer to her questions. ‘Unless he …’ But here, she interrupted her own train of thoughts. ’No, that can’t be. He doesn’t love me!’
She had convinced herself that he could never return her love for him a long time ago. She was just a simple witch, who by the way, she thought a little bitterly, was very old now, and he was the greatest wizard of their time. Surely he would never fall in love with her.
But he once again managed to surprise her like he had done so often during the long years of their friendship, when he pulled back a little and started to caress her cheek again – with more tenderness than he ever had before. She blinked and looked at him surprised and a little bit unsure about what would happen. He smiled at her and slowly brought his head closer to hers.
Finally, his lips touched hers. At the beginning he was just brushing them over hers, but when she responded and brought her hands up to his neck to hold him closer, he deepened the kiss and slowly let his tongue explore her mouth.
After some time they had to pull apart to breathe. But his eyes never left hers and his hand was still caressing her now flushed cheek. When she finally was able to break their eye contact, Minerva shyly looked down at the bed. But Albus forced her to look at him again by gently raising her face with one of his fingers under her chin. “Minerva, please look at me.”
She did as he had asked and was surprised to notice nervousness and uncertainty in his eyes. After what seemed like an eternity to her, Albus finally spoke again. ”My dear, there’s something I have to tell you – I simply have to or it’ll drive me insane …” Here he paused. Minerva looked at him questioningly and when he didn’t continue she carefully asked, ”Yes ?”
Albus took both of her hands in his and, after taking a deep breath, continued with a slightly shaking voice, ”Minerva, I love you.” After he had confessed his love, he closed his eyes and thought, ’My god, what have I done ? I just ruined our friendship. Now she’s going to tell me she doesn’t love me and will never be able to love me because I’m much too old for her …’ He opened his mouth to say something, but to his surprise Minerva stopped him by putting her finger over his lips.
When Albus had closed his mouth, she leaned into him and pressed her lips against his again. At first, Albus was too shocked and surprised to react, but when he regained his senses he deepened the kiss and she gladly accepted it. When the kiss ended, he opened his eyes again and looked at her, still dazed, ”What…?”
Minerva broadly smiled at him. ”I love you, too, you fool …” And even if she still was in pain from those Stunners, the smile and the sparkle that lit up his face and eyes at that moment definitely were worth going through all of this. And before she could even think of what to do next, she was in his arms again and his lips were on hers again. When they pulled apart, both were smiling.
Albus moved, so that Minerva could rest her head on his chest. After they had talked for a while, her head began to sink and sink until it landed in his lap. When she had made herself comfortable, he stroked her hair. ”You should go back to sleep, darling…” ‘Strange, how easy it is to call her that. I thought I would have more problems with it…’ he thought, smiling to himself.
Minerva opened her mouth to say something, but he silenced her by putting his finger over her mouth. “Don’t start arguing … I can see that you’re still weak and in pain and you need all the rest you can possibly get to get well.” She closed her mouth and her eyes as well and nodded. “You’re right.”
She then opened her eyes again to look at him. “What about you ?” Albus smiled a little, having noticed her silent plea right away. He promised her, ”I’ll stay till you fall asleep and then I will leave and hide again. But I’ll be back again tomorrow!”
Minerva smiled at him. ”Just promise me you’ll really leave once I’m asleep. You shouldn’t have come here to see me in the first place. It’s very risky … What if Fudge decides to turn up here and finds you?” she scolded him gently, although she was very glad he had come to see her. And she was even happier about the change in their relationship.
Albus smiled at her tenderly. ”Yes, I know. But I just had to see for myself that you were going to be okay… I was so afraid I would lose you!” She reached up to stroke his cheek. ”Shhh… You won’t!” she told him firmly. And with a small smile she added, ”At least not yet, anyway. And most certainly not if I can help it! I love you!” His smile broadened once again as he told her, ”And I love you! But now go to sleep…”
She made herself comfortable again, closed her eyes and fell asleep within minutes. After she had fallen asleep he stayed for another fifteen minutes and watched her while holding her hand. But then he decided that – even if he wanted to stay in this position with her forever – it would be much safer for him to leave.
Reluctantly he got up, placed her head back on the pillow carefully and tucked her properly in. She snuggled deeper into the covers and gave a little content noise that, had she been in her cat form at that time, would have been a purr for sure, Albus thought with a chuckle. He stood there for another five minutes watching her before he was able to tear his eyes away from her and leave. But not without pressing a kiss to her forehead, ”I love you so much, Minerva …”
And, as if she had heard those reassuring words even in her sleep, a happy smile spread across her face. After Albus had noticed this, he smiled to himself and left.
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totally loved it, great fic 
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