Post by QuillofMinerva on Jul 22, 2005 1:54:42 GMT -5
A/n: HBP spoilers so please do not read unless you have finished the book. This story is told from Minerva's POV. I am not very good at angst but I thought I would give it ago.
Rating: All members of the board.
Here I stand!
The cold air hits me as I stand before the white marble tomb, it chills me right to my bones but I can barely feel it because I am already numb. I have been numb for days now ever since the news was broken to me, I have hid it well because I have had to and that pains me even more.
The night sky doesn't twinkle like it did when you were by my side, the stars are dim and the moon hides behind a large dark cloud. Eerie sounds feel the air, most of the noises coming from the Forbidden Forest. The cries of the wolves, the sounds of the spiders scurrying along the wet ground and the sound hoof prints hitting twigs echo through the cold, lonely air.
I reach out and touch the white marble, the coldness of the stone brings me out of my thoughts and only plunges me into more deeper ones. How could this be? Why did this happen before I had chance to tell you?
I blame myself for it all, it was my fault because if I hadn't sent that traitor to look for him then he would still be with me, with us that need him. Oh how I need him in my life.
I am not sure if I will ever be rid of the numbness I feel and if I am honest I don't want to be free from it. I am not known for my cowardliness, I am known for my stern manner, no nonsense attitude and tackling things head on but I am a coward and that is so because I could not tell the man I loved that I loved him. It is too late now because he has been taken from me and that hangs heavy on my heart.
I have had to step into his shoes at Headteacher of the school he loved and would do anything for, I can not match up to him and I don't think anyone could. I do not want to let him down or myself but I will because I am not as strong because he is not here to make sure I don't explode, he always knew what to say to calm me down and I would be a whole different person in his presence. I actually liked myself in his presence.
But here I stand all alone, the weight of my love for the man beneath the tomb heavy on my shoulders. I wish I had told him, my heart might feel lighter but alas my love has died and so I am alone.
***fin***
Rating: All members of the board.
Here I stand!
The cold air hits me as I stand before the white marble tomb, it chills me right to my bones but I can barely feel it because I am already numb. I have been numb for days now ever since the news was broken to me, I have hid it well because I have had to and that pains me even more.
The night sky doesn't twinkle like it did when you were by my side, the stars are dim and the moon hides behind a large dark cloud. Eerie sounds feel the air, most of the noises coming from the Forbidden Forest. The cries of the wolves, the sounds of the spiders scurrying along the wet ground and the sound hoof prints hitting twigs echo through the cold, lonely air.
I reach out and touch the white marble, the coldness of the stone brings me out of my thoughts and only plunges me into more deeper ones. How could this be? Why did this happen before I had chance to tell you?
I blame myself for it all, it was my fault because if I hadn't sent that traitor to look for him then he would still be with me, with us that need him. Oh how I need him in my life.
I am not sure if I will ever be rid of the numbness I feel and if I am honest I don't want to be free from it. I am not known for my cowardliness, I am known for my stern manner, no nonsense attitude and tackling things head on but I am a coward and that is so because I could not tell the man I loved that I loved him. It is too late now because he has been taken from me and that hangs heavy on my heart.
I have had to step into his shoes at Headteacher of the school he loved and would do anything for, I can not match up to him and I don't think anyone could. I do not want to let him down or myself but I will because I am not as strong because he is not here to make sure I don't explode, he always knew what to say to calm me down and I would be a whole different person in his presence. I actually liked myself in his presence.
But here I stand all alone, the weight of my love for the man beneath the tomb heavy on my shoulders. I wish I had told him, my heart might feel lighter but alas my love has died and so I am alone.
***fin***
*niff*
